open up your eyes.

Sometime I wonder whether I'll ever be enough?

Smart enough?
Pretty enough?
Tall enough?
Thin enough?
Fast enough?
Strong enough?
Kind enough?
Nice enough?
Brave enough?
Graceful enough?
Talented enough?

and most of all

Happy enough?

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more than words on a page.

5 Days to Breaking Dawn people!!!

That is if you live in the states. Only coming out August 4th for us Malaysians at the other side of the world. And, since US is like a day behind us, we'll actually be getting it 3 days later.

The sad thing is, since I have trials, I will have to restrain myself from reading the book.

You know, yesterday I decided to check out a couple of bookstores to see if they were going to give a discount on Breaking Dawn when it comes out. Seeing as Amazon is selling it with 45% off for the hardcover. None of the bookstores have really planned anything. And when my mum was talking to the manager at Times, you know what we found out? You know how most stores will like follow the decision on one store. So let's say if Tesco is giving 20% discount then other supermarkets will either follow or give more. The 'leading' bookshop in Malaysia is to my surprise not MPH despite having the most chains. The Times lady said that all the bookshops now are waiting to see what Borders will do. Whatever they do, others will follow.

And Breaking Dawn is so expensive!! It's like RM89.90 for the hardcover. But if I ordered it on Amazon, I'll only have to pay RM40.50. Half price!!! Unfortunately my uncle is arriving on August 2nd so the book wouldn't reach his house in time. So I can't order it. At least I got the first 3 books in hardcover for 40/45% each. Amazon is so awesome I tell you.

But my mummy said she'll buy me Breaking Dawn when it comes out anyway. Yay!!

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who would have thought.

There's this dance group from Korea that cheorographs dances to go with Christian worship songs. Some are good, some are not so good. But it's quite cool to know that they're doing this all the way in Korea. Their called DMT. Not sure why though.



This is my favourite video of theirs. The first time I saw it I cried. And I didn't even know the lyrics as the song was in Korean.


And we only have 26 cards left to give out!!!

We've collected RM473 today from just 3 people. Looks like everything is going well.
Hope the camp will be a success too.

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like two dolphins.

I was just browsing through some Twilight fansites yesterday and stumbled across twilightguy.com. It's about this guy who has started reading the Twilight saga as he wants to know why so many girls are hooked onto it. He's posting his thoughts up on each chapter and has made it to New Moon chapter 4 so far.

In one of his posts (epilogue of Twilight I think), he made a very good point/observation. He said that he realized that he's reading the book not to read a bout Bella or Edward or anyone else. It's to read about Bella AND Edward. And I realized that that's exactly the reason I read so many chick lit books. It's not for the guy I wish I'll meet or the girl I hope I'll be. Eventhough I'm sure alot of people (my sister for instance) would read a book just to read about the very perfect or not so perfect but nonetheless good guy and how he's so romantic, polite, thoughtful, smart etc, I read a book to see the progressing relationship/love between the two main love interests.

With so many love stories out there, it's no wonder that many of us have deluded ourselves into thinking that 'dreams do come true' or have completely given up on the idea of true love. Who ever created fairy tales must have been very evil. I can just imagine the person thinking 'Hmm, I wonder what'll happen if I make love sound so perfect with happy endings? Women would have high expectations and dreams that will be crushed when they find out that there is no such thing as the perfect guy. Men will feel the pressure from the significant other to live up to the perfect guy character from fairy tales. Muahahaha, what a wonderful plan to crush the hopes and dreams of so many!!!'

Okay, maybe it wasn't like that but I could just imagine it. Sometimes I wish I could stop myself from reading all these books so that I won't have unrealistic expectations of guys but I always find myself going back to read all the mushy love stories.

In the movie 'Becoming Jane'(a movie about Jane Austen's life), Jane meets with a famous female romance novelist who writes novels that are filled with passion and mystery. However when jane Austen meets her, the author is actually a quiet and shy woman. When asked how the author comes up with ideas, she replies "I write stories because it's everything my life is not."

So just like that, I guess I read because my life would probably never come close to the romance I read in books.








But on the other hand, most stories/legends/fairytales usually have some truth in them. So maybe, just maybe, true love like in the books must exist somewhere right?

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crossing the room.

And just what is wrong with me being SHORT???

Will being 5'5'' instead of 5'4'' make a big impact in my life?

Will it allow me to go into LSE without working hard?

Will it make my future employers pay me more?

Will it change the way people treat me?

Will I suddenly be smarter/prettier/faster/stronger if I grow an inch?

Who knows what my dad's problem is.

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cause my heart dies.

30 Hour Famine!!!!

Finally got started. All those who want to register please come down to the canteen during break/lunch.

63 cards given out on the first day. Not bad considering we didn't really publicize it.

For more information, please click here.


On another note, look what we found on the road while walking back.

If your eyesight fails you, it's a picture of a bird that got rolled over.

After lunch, we walked back to my house and Amanda was like there's a flattened bird on the road. True enough it was there. Poor bird must have been injured or something and a car drove over it since it couldn't get away fast enough.

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american boy.

All right then people, we've set up a Facebook account and blog for the 30 Hour Famine.

If I haven't already invited you, message me for an invite to the group.

Blog address is thirtyhourfamine.blogspot.com

Please pray that everything will go well from now on. Or at least there shouldn't be any major problems.

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my head wants to expolde.

You know, yesterday the famine committee was so happy as we got an sms from Datin Vivienne that she has managed to get us a venue for our camp. We were going to start the publicity in our school today by going to each class and telling them how we're organizing this camp which is totally not in any way related to our school. So me, Trixie and Melissa go to see Ms. Harriet to ask for a notice board so that we can put up our poster. But she said we had better ask Mrs. Chan first.

So we were like okay. Went into Mrs. Chan's office to talk to her about it. At first when we said we wanted to publicize it she was like sure, go ahead. Then somewhere in the conversation, Trixie mentioned that we were getting help from Datin Vivienne and you could totally see the transformation in Mrs. Chans expression. Then later, I asked about the school buses as getting buses from our school might be cheaper than outside. Mrs. Chan asked how many buses we wanted and I said 4 cause we were aiming for 200 participants from our school. This was followed by Mrs. Chan asking whether we thought we were being too ambitious. Well anyway, to cut a long story short, Mrs. Chan said the reason she rejected our proposal in the first place was that she thought that only FIVE of us wanted to use to school and she thought it was ridicoulus. But I vividly remember her saying it's because she didn't want the school to be held responsible for any injuries. Why a sudden change in story??

Well of course it's ridicoulus!!!! We said in out proposal that this was for the studentS of the school and we wanted to raise a large amount of money. What's more our committee itself has 10 people. So where is the logic that she thought only FIVE of us wanted to use the school????? So now, she said she'd have to deliberate with Ms. Harriet as to how the school can best support us in this. Argh!!! You don't know how irritated I am!!! We freaking gave you the proposal for TWO weeks to look over and NOW you tell us you want to see the pros and cons of this camp? I swear it's just cause we said Datin Vivienne would help us.

According to the schdule we planned out, we we supposed to have started all the publicity and distribution of donation cards TWO weeks ago. The dateline is freaking 9 August, in the middle of our trials so we all want this to be done with at the end of July. But noooo, you just had to make our lives difficult.


P.S To any teacher who reads this (I know some do), don't get me wrong, I don't mean any harm but it is just so fustrating that ONE person should affect the planning of our camp so much. It's not like this is a camp for fun, it's for charity.

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yell for more.

As most everyone should know, Cheer 08' was held yesterday and today. Went for today's one seeing the results would only be out today.

So I just wanna say

CONGRATS!!!!!

To the boys team for getting third despite being so inexperienced and losing one of their main flyers a day before the competition.

To the girls team for improving their standing since last year and for raising the bar on cheerleading with more complicated stunts.

Took the LRT in the morning with Trixie, Jialik and her sister, Amanda and her sister and her sister's friend. And my sister. Got there around 9.30 but thank goodness the competition hasn't begun. Let me tell you something funny, this is the first time we took the LRT to Bukit Jalil so there was one point where the line splits into two so there are two different trains. We obviously took the wrong one. You see, there was a bunch of Dynamitez supporters and Blitzerz supporters in front of us so we were just following them. Just goes to show you that you shouldn't follow other people. But we happened to get onto the same train as Aleena and all so it was okay. Trixie just made a comment that the KDU-ians all look like one mafia gang cause our shirts are black and we all walked in one big gang to the stadium.

It was a long day as only a handful of teams were worth watching. The top 15 to be exact. Other than that (not being a show-off or anything), but even our house team cheer could beat at least half of the other teams there.

Results for the day are as follows

1st: Shirtliff from SM Sri Bintang Utara (Don't you think they have a weird name?)
2nd: Dynamitez from SMK DJ
3rd: Stunners All-Boys from SM Sri KDU
4th: Titans from SMK Ave Maria Convent, Ipoh
5th: Xavier from SMK Convent Bukit Nanas

One little thing, I do agree that Shirtliff deserved to get 1st as they had a perfect routine both days, but the thing that annoyed me was that when the emcees announced Dynamitez as 2nd, all the Shirtliff people got up and cheered. Talk about being overconfident that they were going to be first. Me, Trixie, Jia Lik and Amanda were like 'Don't let them get 1st' just cause of their cocky attitude. Shirtliff also won the Silkygirl Merit Award(No deduction of points) and Best Showmanship. So many awards la.

There was also this team that were the kind of team that wore tights to cover up their legs but they did this dance to Buttons by Pussycat dolls that was so OBSCENE!! You could tell the entire stadium was so shocked. I swear, all the younger people now a days like to dance so obscenely. There was a sort of game in between performances where the emcess got 5 girls from the crowd to dance to a Pussycat dolls song. And their moves were such an eyesore. There was this one girl in a denim miniskirt who totally flashed the entire world when she did a high kick in front of the judges.

All in all, Cheer always serves as a memorable occasion. The amount of people, the amount of energy, the funny moments and the gossip that we observe are all memories that can only be experienced at cheer.

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every other time.

Had a 30 Hour Famine meeting with most of the committee and Aunty Vivienne. You don't know how much of help it is to have an adult involved in this. With her help, we don't have to worry about venue, transport, sponsorship for water or cash sponsorship. Such a relief!!!

Now as long as we get a venue, we go all out already.

So to all KDU-ians who read my blog, spread the word that we'll be organizing a 30 Hour Famine in August. Dates are 23-24 August. No donation card distribution yet cause we wanna secure a venue first. But we're only opening to 100+ people so if you wanna join please do get the donation forms as soon as we decide to distribute them. I will post it up here the date as to when we'll be giving out the donation cards.

If you wanna know more about the 30 Hour Famine project done by World Vision,
please click here.

After the meeting, followed a bunch of them to Jasema to buy the stuff to make the 'banners' for some of the cheerleaders tomorrow. Went over to Melissa's place to do it. 8 banners to do. And within 2 hours, 6 of us (Aleena, Puiyi, Melissa, Nick, Andrew & I) managed to all 8 roughly but without any details. I went back at 6 cause had to get ready for ballet.

To all

Stunners Cheerleaders

Good Luck!!

(especially to the guys team as they just lost a flyer. one night before the competition.)

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down blankets and pillows.

NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Entertainment Weekly US did a interview with Stephenie Meyer considering her book Breaking Dawn and the upcoming Twilight movie. Not a clue as to what it says in the interview so the cause for the NO must be something else.

You see, the cover of the magazine is a picture of Edward(Robert Pattison) and Bella(Kristen Stewart). And this picture is a glimpse of what the charatcters will look like in the movie, I think I'd rather not watch the movie.

Here it is.

Do you not think that Robert Pattison looks more like a werewolf than a suave vampire?
While Bella looks more like a vampire than a normal human being?

Something funny happened in school today.

You see, during physics, the guys must have been pretty bored so Edward decided to draw something on Yu Kuan's hand. Normally I don't think Yu Kuan would have let his hand been drawn on seeing as it was Chemistry next and we all know how much Mr. Yow dislikes people having things drawn on their arms. But, Edward made a bet with Yu Kuan and promised to give him RM5(I think) if he showed the hand to Mr. Yow.

Now you see, if it was just a normal squiggle or something then it wouldn't e so funny. So you know what was on Yu Kuan's hand?

A big RED HEART with the words 'I love Mr. Yow'in the middle. Once we saw it we couldn't stop laughing. Yu Kuan actually wanted to go to the toilet and wash it off but Mr. Yow caught a glimpse of something on his hand and said that unless Yu Kuan shows it to him he won't let Yu Kuan go to the toilet. So eventually Mr. Yow saw Yu Kuan's 'declaration' of love. Hahahahaha. I missed the moment when he saw it but apparently all Mr. Yow did was smile and laugh at it.

So yeah, that's all for now.

Hopefully I'll be allowed to go for Cheer 08' and that we can start promoting the famine in school next week. Anyone who reads this please pray that the famine will 'jadi'.

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is it broken?

Had violin just now at Hartamas and seeing as my sister's piano class only finishes at 8.30 while my class finishes at 8, got my mum to drive me around the Hartamas area in search of the new Taylor's College campus. So apparently it's in Plaza Damas. But since we're all lazy to get out of the car, we just drove around looking for the place but couldn't find it. After asking around, finally found out that the place is like in between all the shops where they have this street that cars can't go into. So hoping to check the place out properly sometime.

If the place looks nice and they have experienced lecturers, I may go there for A-levels. The Subang campus may be the main one but Hartamas is such a better location. I know the place so much better seeing as I've lived there for 12 years of my life so I won't get lost and I'll know where most of the shops are.

Went for dinner at Saffron. It's this restaurant in Sri Hartamas that serves really good Indian food. I think the restaurant is as old as me cause ever since I've lived at Hartamas the place has been there. Quality of food is still as good as I remembered it to be many years ago. Prices haven't changed much either. Bad news is that the portion of their chappati has shrunk. I remember when I used to order it, the chappati used to cover my entire plate. Now it barely covers half. Size of the rest of the food is about the same though. I absolutely love their Bhatura!!! It's this sweet fluffy naan like thing.

So after dinner, my sister wanted to take a drive around Hartamas to see how much it has changed over the past five years. Not much has changed save for a few houses which have been renovated and now have this ultra modern look which sticks out like a sore thumb among the other houses. The playground opposite my old house hasn't changed either. There's just more street lamps and all the swings and monkey bars and stuff have been repainted.

Driving past all these places totally bring back such great memories of Hartamas. Times when computers didn't rule our lives. Every evening I used to cycle out with the Hartamas people and we'd just cycle around the neighbour hood laughing and talking. I even remember a jambu tree at one place where we'd pluck the jambu off but never eat them. Fun times....

Cheer 08' is this weekend. Planning to go on Sunday but haven't really asked my father yet. Waiting to catch him in a good mood. Don't really know how well our teams are. But I think they'll be facing tough competition this year. Hopefully they'll place in the top 10 for all the holidays and hours they've sacrificed for this one competition.

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it's been laid down.

Yesterday, Ed vinn introduced this singer to me. And this guys voice is just so awesome!!!

He's a singer from the Philippines.

Gabe Bondoc-We Match.

Another band that I like. They're from the States. Not very well known but I love their songs. Can't seem to find a place to download it. So only have Youtube to listen to them. Unless someone wants to buy their album for me from iTunes. =)

Honor Society-Unpredictable(acoustic version)

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buisness plan.

So today was the final day of Career 'Week'. Was looking forward to the Advertising talk but due to unforseen circumstances, Yasmin Ahmad couldn't make it. Talk about a bunch of dissapointed students. So in the end I went for the 'Taking Chances' talk by Greg's dad. All I learnt is that Greg's dad's life is really interesting with 3 near death experienes and traveling across US and from London back to Malaysia on a Harley Davidson. Sounds so cool.....I also wanna try!!!

Food buisness was quite funny. Marketing was okay but the woman droned on and on for so long. And you know the funny thing is, that people like Greg's dad and the DELIcious guy who are doing so well now, either don't have a degree or a totally irrelevant degree to what their doing now. So during the Q & A sessions, you could see that the PTA had to ask questions so that the speakers would tell us how important education is. Quite funny actually.

Concerning the 30-Hour Famine. We finally got an answer from Mrs. Chan today. It's a NO. Cause apparently we are such a high profile school with high profile parents who will sue the school if anything happens to their precious darling children during the 30 hours without food. I mean to a certain extent I can see what she's gettin at but if we make eveyone sign the consent form I don't see a problem. After all, it's not like we're going to force people to not eat. It's their choice and their parents choice on whether anot they'll be allowed to go. We have given everything to Ms. Harriet and she'll be reviewing it. So I hope she'll say yes tomorrow. After all, does she think we have the luxury of time? We'll totally be behind schedule if we don't get an answer tomorrow.

We have thought of 2 back-up plans. One is that we just do 8 hours in school if Mrs. Chan will let. Get the students to do the activities and what not and then go home later so at least we won't need to stay over at school. Sounds like a good idea but the students might find it quite troublesome to come and go. They'll also have to find their own transport to Bukit Jalil for the countdown if we can't get buses.

The other plan is to do it at another venue. Problem here is the rental fee and whether anot other places will allow us to stay over at the place. What's more I don't know how it'll be if the girls and guys will be allowed to sleep in the same room.


Argh!!!! Mrs. Chan!!!! If you had only said yes we wouldn't have this problem!!!!!

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ave maria.

Just a couple of pics from ballet concert.

Us in our 'monster' costumes. So colourful!!! (Sarah seems to missing for some reason.)
After the show. In Boho costume. There were too many cameras so you'll realize that not all are looking at the same one. (Jasmine's missing)
Another one. Jasmine has decided to grace us with her presence.

Today was the second day of our Career 'Week'. I only signed up for the Journalism talk as wasn't very interested in Animation. Most people I knew either went for the Cardiologist or Money Matters talk. The talk was much more interesting that I expected it to be. Learned a fair bit more about the job as a journalist. Speaker was Niki Cheong who's a writer for the Star newspaper with a column out every forthnight titled "The Bangsar Boy". Journalism does seem like an interesting career choice but I probably wouldn't pick it as my first choice. Maybe I'll try freelancing sometime next time.

For tomorrow, skipping the first session as neither Film Direction, Architecture, Taking Chances nor being a Pilot piqued my interests. Am going for Food Buisness (Speaker is the guy who owns Delicious group of restaurants), Advertising (Speaker is Yasmin Ahmad, the person who directed Sepet) and Marketing (No idea who the speaker is). Should be an interesting series of talks tomorrow.

Also met our new Physics teacher today. He is............nice. He's also very soft spoken. He also looks WAY too young. Haha. Someone even said he looks younger than Head Prefect. Understanding his speech is going to prove a small obstacle as some of his pronounciation isn't very good. At one point me and Amanda were wondering why he kept saying fox and foxes all the time. Later realised that he meant force and forces. Oh well, maybe it's just first day nerves. Please get better with time!!! Physics is a subject where I do need to listen to teacher cause the textbook and notes don't really make sense all the time.

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