20/20.

Feeling conflicting emotions.

On one hand I feel like I am returning home. After one full year away from KL, it's nice to think that I'd be able to go back and have some chilli pan mee, nasi lemak and teh tarik. As well as have a car. And air conditioning.

But yet, I've also feel like I'm leaving a sort of home in the UK. From the time I've spent in Manchester has been filled with lots of fun and memories. All the nights out, the traveling, the laughs with friends. And also the past 3 months in London. It may not sound very long, but when you've lived in a place and had to do the cooking/cleaning/grocery shopping/laundry it really does feel like home. More Manchester home though, cause I've never done any of that back in KL. 

I suppose I'm not really going home quite yet cause after just 3 days back home I'll be setting off for a 10 week Raleigh Expedition in Sabah! Community work, biodiversity survey, jungle trekking for 10 days straight and diving. Looks to be what is to be the most challenging 10 weeks of my life! 

Anyone who knows me is going to think that I've gone completely mad signing up for it. Me, who does not like doing any sort of exercise(expect dance, cause that's actually fun) has signed up to live in the jungle with no internet, no showers and no bed for 10 weeks. Even to myself it sounds a bit mad. 

But I feel like if I don't do something that places me out of my comfort zone now, it's never going to happen. People may think that there's plenty of time for all this traveling and volunteer work later in life. Yet I feel like many people get stuck in their working life, which they may not necessarily hate, but somewhere in the back of their minds they want to go out and explore the world. 

I guess I just wanna try living the simple life. To see whether there is more to life than chasing the buying of the next car/house/child (okay fine you don't exactly buy children but they suck more life and money out of you than anything else can).

P.S Seeing as I won't have any access to the Internet while on the Raleigh expedition, you can keep up with the going ons here

http://www.raleighinternational.org/ri-blogs/raleigh-borneo/

Also feel free to write me letters (the old school way!)

Loke Weng Yee (13K)
Raleigh House
PO BOX 14182
88848 Kota Kinabalu
Sabah
Malaysia