city.

I'm gonna make an assumption here

that most people who get into relationships before they're 20 are just looking for a 'Right Now' not a 'For The Rest Of My Life'. (Feel free to comment if you think otherwise)

Given my assumption,

I really don't understand why people want relationships?

It's like you know that at one point, you are going to break up and there's going to be heartbreak and lots of tears. Maybe some yelling and throwing of stuff. (If it ended on a bad note)

So does that mean relationships are always good enough to compensate for the bad at the end? I think not. Yet, people are so willing to jump into one. Not to mention the fact that it's not always smooth sailing DURING the relationship. I would say that bad stuff during relationship + breakup > good part of relationship.

Haha. My objective view on it. Perhaps when I'm actually in a relationship I'll be able to understand why people do stupid things and make stupid decisions all for the sake of love.

But then again, you only get the rainbow after the rain.

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oil.

As a kid, didn't you feel that adults kept making you confused?

Or maybe it was just me.

But when results come back and let's say I got 94(a pretty good mark), my parents would always ask me who got the highest in class. And then instead of telling me that 94 is good, they'd say I should have worked harder to score the highest mark in class. After all, we should always attempt to better ourselves.

Yet when it comes to buying things, they'd always say that I should think of the poor children in the world who can't afford as many nice things as me.

How is that confusing you ask??

Well, excuse me but as a kid, am I suppose to be comparing myself to those better than me or worse than me??? No such thing as the best of both worlds okay.

Hmm. Now that it's all typed out it seems kinda silly. Ah well.

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shipwreck.

If you watched the video I posted up earlier titled "Do Schools Kill Creativity?", you would have heard the guy say that Maths and Language are at the top of the education "food chain". With the arts like Dance, Literature, Music at the bottom.

Why is it that way? Who on earth decided that there should be a hierarchy system when it comes to learning?

Shouldn't education be about gaining knowledge as a whole. And not only about one particular field. Yes I know that through specialisation we can improve by leaps and bounds in that particular field. But then wouldn't you be using one side of your brain much more than the other.

I think it's pretty unfair that Maths is considered to be the most important subject. And I can't stand how it is practically forced upon all students. Every single student would at one point or another have to study Maths while only those who want to will take up Lit. How many students study Literature? Very few no? I'm not saying that Literature is better than Maths, but rather that all students should be asked to study Lit at one point in their lives. Then maybe no one would have the opinion that studying Humanities is a waste of time. And they'd probably realise that Lit is not only about reading books. That it is a REALLY difficult subject.

Though it may be generalising, I'm pretty sure a lot of those not in Humanities would say that we Humanities students are wasting our time. That these artsy subjects don't contribute to the evolvement of the human race. After all, to build technology, Maths is definitely more important.

But then, what's so great about evolving anyway? Maybe it'll make life easier for those of us born into average or above average families that can afford to make life relatively comfortable. Yet it's because of evolution that the earth is dying cause all people do is exploit nature to make more money.

Gah. My thoughts seemed so all over the place.

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wedding dress.

I don't know whether it's just me who thinks of this.

Scenario A:

A guy is in love with his girl best friend. Girl gets a boyfriend.

What happens?

Guy still continues to be close to her but never reveals his feelings. The girl never realises that her best friend is in love with her and so continues in her happy happy joy joy relationship.

Result?

Guy has a broken heart.

Scenario B:

A girl is in love with her guy best friend. Guy gets a girlfriend.

What happens?

Instead of revealing her feelings, she says nothing and slowly distances herself away from the guy. And the girlfriend gets jealous of all the time the girl and guy spend together.

Result?

Girl forgets about guy (Or at least tries to).

Don't know how accurate this is. But I think these things always happen in movies or books or videos. And we all know that somehow it's gotta be based on something real.

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what's worth.

Optimist or pessimist?

Sounds like a stupid question no?

After all, I highly doubt suicidal people are optimistic. So clearly on that point being optimistic would be better since dying is perceived by most people as being not good.

But yet, wouldn't it be better to not be disappointed with life so often?

Situation: Someone applies to two different universities, one is really prestigious and the other is not bad but definitely not as good as the prestigious university.

Optimistic approach ~ "There's a chance that I'll get into the prestigious uni!!"

Pessimistic approach ~ "Oh well, I'm just trying my luck since I'm not good enough."

Result A: Person gets accepted in the prestigious uni.

Optimistic reply ~ "WOOHOO!! I knew I could do it!!"

Pessimistic approach ~ "Wow, they actually want me??"

Result B: Person does not get accepted into prestigious uni.

Optimistic reply ~ "Oh no, WHY?? Well, at least I can still go to uni."

Pessimistic reply ~ "I knew it."

Maybe it's just me. But I'd prefer to be pessimistic. After all, it'll be easier to be pleasantly surprised. Haha.

P.S Every time I think about this question I remember Trixie's presentation in English class and how being optimistic will lead to a person dying cause the bridge collapsed. Remember that Trixie???

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phantom.

As a person grows older, they also grow more tired faster.

While most people say it's due to physical causes such as muscles and joints slowly wearing out. Cells and bones don't grow back as fast as they used to. Blah blah blah.

Wanna hear my reason?

People get tired more easily mentally and emotionally which then affects them physically.

The older you get, the higher the total count for lies you've told. Incidences that you've had to brush or smooth away in order to keep the peace. More times that you'll have to put up a brave face when inside something's breaking.

And in the end, all the pretending sucks the energy out of you. It takes so much effort to put on the mask every morning to face the world. The world that tells you every thing's gonna be alright. "Every thing will be okay in the end. If it isn't okay, it isn't the end" But ultimately, you keep up with the masquerade. You think "Hey, it's already been 30 years. What's another 30?"

So it never ends, everyone wears a mask.

What do I have to say about this?

No, I'm not gonna say that we all should learn to throw away our masks. Cause honestly, the mask always gives off a better appearance, it gives people comfort seeing as they can control what mask people see them wear but they can't change the person that lies behind the mask. However, I do say that in life, look for those few that you can put your mask down with. Then maybe, just maybe, growing old won't be as tiring as it's suppose to be.

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butterfly.

Just a little something that I wanna talk about.

Couples who celebrate anniversaries.

No offense meant here but just my two cents.

I know I find it weird that some couple celebrate their anniversaries ALL the time. One month, 6 months or 1 year anniversaries are okay. But don't you think it gets kinda weird when people start having 88 days or 5 months or 1 year 1 month 1 day anniversaries??

Honestly I think most people celebrate anniversaries cause they wanna use it as an excuse to dress up and go for a fancy dinner. Or even just so that their significant other will buy them a present that 'means something'.

Should I ever get myself into a relationship, anniversaries will not be the "YES!! We've made it this far!!" event but the "THANK YOU!! You have made my life that much happier."

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forget it.

Let's pose a hypothetical situation.

You're in your car driving down a road at night coming back from some outing at a shopping complex. Suddenly out of nowhere a drunk driver speeding crashes right into your car at the passenger's side.

Your car is crushed beyond recognition but you're still alive. You crawl out of the car using only the strength of one hand seeing as your other looks like it's in a funny position. As you reach for your handphone to call a family member you also realise that your back seems to be getting wetter and wetter with the blood that's spilling out of your head. You call your mother. No answer. So you have no choice but to call your father to come help.

He picks up the phone and you try to tell him in as little words as possible your situation cause you feel yourself getting short of breath. Now it's his turn to reply.

Which reply to you think is more realistic?

"I know you're not okay but everything's going to be fine. I'll rush over there as fast as I can."

or

"WHAT!!! YOU CRASHED THE CAR! Do you know how much that car costs? Does it look like it's possible to get the car fixed cause I'm not forking out any more money to get you another car."

Not sure bout you people out there. But I am positive I know which is more realistic for me.

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down down down.

Why is it that some people always seem to be so angry?

Is it that something went wrong with their day that they have to be in a bad mood?

Or more likely that their selfish arrogant ways makes it difficult for them to understand that the world does not freaking revolve around them?

Or that they are so hypocritical that they can't see all their flaws in themselves?

Or....is it just that they want attention?

Someone explain to me please. Cause if I have to deal with this all the time I might just very well chuck someone out the window. Hopefully into a nice deep hole with lots of spikes. 

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earth begins to freeze.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

yet

Out of sight, out of mind.

Physical or emotional pain?


I'd pick physical. Because no matter how bad it might get, you'd know that somehow there would be a way to stop it. That there would always be some treatment or medicine to stop the pain. And no matter how many scars the pain might leave, it would heal. Or at least you could cover it up.

But with emotional? If you suffer, you suffer alone. No one would know just how bad it hurts. You'd also never know when the pain will end or whether it will end at all. There is no doctor who can tell you to take this antibiotic or pill and the pain will leave you forever. And some scars remain.

It's like with those people who slit their wrists (not that I condone their actions). But in interviews with them, they always say that they inflict physical pain on themselves to get their mind off the emotional problems.


Exams in two days. Back to Economics it is.

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not meant to be.

Sometimes I think that reading is actually bad for you.

Despite the whole, it'll 'broaden your knowledge' idea that people feed you, I think if I read less it'd be better.

Reading provides me the escape that I want. When I pick a good book up, the rest just fades away. And for those few hours, I wouldn't be me. I'd be a character in the book. Detective on the trail of a missing priceless painting. Vampire heroine who falls in love with the enemy. Princess in-the-making. Washerwoman struggling to make ends meet.

Whatever character it is, I'd be happy to be sucked into the fictional world. Because no matter how bad things got in the book, I'd know that at the end there would always be a happy ending for the main character.

But in reality?

Everything is uncertain. The future is always cloudy. You'd never know whether you'd make it to the next day in one piece.

I just want to know whether everything that I have to go through will be worth it in the end.

"Perfect vision on hindsight."

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swear your love's for me.

I admit I am a tad cynical when it comes to love.

That even in fairy tales, there is gore. And no, I do not refer to the Disney 'and they lived happily ever after' type of story. I'm talking about the original fairy tales. Where in Cinderella her evil stepmother cut of Cinderella's stepsisters' toe or heel in an attempt to get their feet to fit into the shoe that the prince had. And where in the end they get their eyes pecked out by pigeons.

Another example. Snow White. The evil queen ate the lung and liver which she believed to have belonged to Snow White. But actually it was the lung and liver of a bear whom the hunter had killed as he spared Snow White's life. Guess what? You know how in the Disney version Snow White comes alive after the prince kisses her? Well, the original version has the seven dwarfs tripping over a tree root as they're carrying the coffin. And this slight blunder causes the apple piece to dislodge itself from Snow White's throat. The evil queen ends up having to wear a pair of iron shoes that had been freshly removed from the fire and dance till she dies.

Last one. I promise. In little mermaid, around the dwelling of the witch(Ursula), is the skeletons of all the humans who've died from shipwrecks, there's even the copse of a mermaid who got caught by the polypi. And the little mermaid gave her voice away by having her tongue cut off by the witch. In the end, the little mermaid dies because the stupid prince marries someone else.

Haha. So now you know what fairy tales are really like.













Yet, despite all the cynical thoughts I might have. I am a true romantic at heart.

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2080.

Something I find strange.

Why do people say "Have you caught a cold??"

I mean, do I look like I would go "WOOOHOOO COLD!!! Come here so I can play catch with you." and ultimately catch it??

Anyways,

You MUST try J.Co's mini donuts. =D

A little bit of heaven in every piece. Especially the cheesy one.

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they said love was complicated.

Another rant. They're so fun!! I think I'll do them more often.

Okay, so the roads in Tropicana have been resurfaced this past week. And while it's good and everything as smoother roads ensure smoother drives, there's something that they do that just does NOT make sense to me.

You see, the thing is that when the resurface the road they basically just put on another layer of tar to smoothen out the road. So that means each time they resurface the road, their adding another inch. Obviously that means the roads become thicker or rather higher each time they do it. As we all know, there are manholes on the road here in Malaysia that have to be so conveniently located smack in the middle of the road.

When they put tar on the road they can't put tar on top on the manhole right? So you know what that means?? That each time they resurface the road, the manholes become deeper and deeper. Which also means that the bump is REALLY big if you don't avoid driving over the manhole.

What's the point of resurfacing the road then? While it may have lessened the number of port holes, the manholes have just become deeper.

So yeah, why can't they find a way to not make the roads higher? I mean, they could always remove the old tar then only put the new tar on right? But I guess it would be too troublesome and it'd cost more. And we all know that money is far more important than a safe smooth drive in the neighbourhood.


As a side note. Chem paper was strange today.

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that i can't explain.

Just a little rant that's been sitting in my drafts. Finally finished it this morning.

As all those who've sat or are sitting for SPM should know, Moral is hands down the most pointless subject we've ever been required to study.

All you have to do to get an A is memorise the 26 nilais. Word for word. Any mistake will result in no marks given. Which in turn will not give you an A on your SPM cert. Like seriously. Just memorise the kata kunci and you're good to go. As me and my friends have often joked, Moral does not test whether you bermoral or not. It test your skills in lying and writing about stuff you wouldn't do in real life.

The Ministry of Education has often said that learning Moral will instill good values into the students. How? I only see a subject that exercises the memory and crapping skills of a student. For all you know, the student who scores well for Moral could be the student that doesn't do their work, is spoiled and rude. But people seeing that he/she got an A for Moral in SPM would be "Oh. he/she got an A so that must mean that he/she is actually very nice and polite.". The only part of Moral I can see that actually could hep the students is the part where we do Kerja Amal.

While I'm sure there are many out there who 'fake' their Kerja Amal by posing for pictures, there are also those who really did go out and do some charity. In my class I know that most of them went to orphanages to help kids out, went to Zoo Negara. Me and my friends went to SPCA where we peeled chicken to mix with rice as dog food.

Another thing that bothers me is that Moral is a compulsory subject for non-Muslims. While Agama Islam is compulsory for Muslim students. Meanwhile Bible Knowledge is counted as an exrta subject. Why can't students be given the choice to either take BK instead of Moral? The Christians should be given the choice to take either. And the Hindus and Buddhists and all the other religions should be given their own subject. Taking an extra subject just means extra work so why can't other religious studies be counted as a core subject? Of course all the atheists and free thinkers would still take Moral but those who have a religion should be given the choice to take their own religious study.

Okay, rant's over. Sorry if it's a little long. And I think I've spelled the word 'choice' wrong so many times while typing this post. For some reason my fingers keep spelling it as 'choise'. Weird.

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